Saturday, October 13, 2012

many words and no pictures

Often times when I see a super wordy blog with no pictures I skip over it. So I won't judge you in the slightest if you pass this post by without reading a word further.
But writing is therapeutic for me, and I have some things I'd like to get off my chest.

My morning devotional (which I absolutely love and you should consider buying) this morning talked about being afraid of other's opinions of us.
This is something I used to struggle with often, and still do on occassion. (I think everyone does on some level.) I wonder how I come across to others, and what they are thinking of me, whether it be good or bad.
I guess what I'm saying is I value others' opinions much higher than I should.
I've had these feelings popping up over the last few weeks when I think about our upcoming move.
And really; there's a few issues on this topic that I should probably address.

Kevin was supposed to graduate with his masters degree on December 15th 2012.
That is not happening anymore.
I'm not sure how many of you have written a thesis paper on forest entomology, but apparently it's no cake walk. A few of Kevin's advisors have asked him to write additional chapters, which will obviously take longer than originally planned. 
So Kevin will officially graduate next Spring, but we are still trying to move back to PA before Christmas for many reasons (much too boring & lengthy to hash out on this blog).
Kevin can write from a distance and submit his paper to his professors/advisors via email all while hopefully working at an awesome and well paying job in PA that we have yet to find. (!) (sorry for that crazy run on sentence)

The flip side to this is that Kevin might have to stay here at school an additional month or 2 longer than we thought (going into January or February). We don't know for sure if he will have to stay or not, but his advisors might force advise him to do so.
Which would really stink.

And that's where my whole worrying about what other people think thing is coming into play.
What will people think if I move home (most likely into my parents basement) and leave my husband behind?
Will people think I am putting my needs and wants above his own? Because that's totally not what is happening?!
I know I shouldn't care; and I know others opinions should play no role in this decision making process.
But that is kind of a hard pill to swallow for someone who struggles with this anyway.

So this little devotional was quite encouraging to me this morning. Trying to push others thoughts out of my mind, and not worry as to how I will explain why we do what we're doing.
I want to make the decision that's right for our family; whatever and wherever that may be. And I trust that God will show us the way to go.
And hopefully soon...because it's almost here!
Until then, encouragement and prayer for us in this area would be greatly appreciated.
xox

2 comments:

  1. I have learned, and it's been made even more clear recently with the fire, that people are going to have opinions and talk no matter what choice you make.
    It's not a matter of if people will talk, it's a matter of when they will talk.
    When they talk, fix your eyes on the Lord. You and Kevin know what He is asking you to (even if you don't know why) and He will give you grace and strength if you need to be apart for some time.

    On a lighter note - think of how fun it will be when you're reunited again! :-)

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  2. The ones that would judge you don't matter and the ones that matter won't judge. Do what you want as a couple and that's all that matters!

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